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The beginnings of my first solo trip

30 May

I have always wanted to travel around. Finally, I’ll get a chance in September when I head off to New Zealand and Australia. While I’m so excited, to the point where I can’t sleep because all I’m thinking of is this trip, I tiny part of me is also afraid. I’ve never done a solo trip this far – it’s literally on the other side of the world! I know Australia’s pretty safe, but still, the thought of travelling alone scares me a bit. This could either work out to be amazing or it could flop completely. I guess that’s normal and the fear won’t go away until I’m actually there. I imagine it’s like how I was terrified to start driving, but once I got used to it, it wasn’t so scary. Here’s to hoping things are like that. Still having second thoughts about this whole trip though. Maybe I shouldn’t go, maybe I should wait till I secure a full-time job, maybe I should go somewhere closer and cheaper. Maybe it’s one of those things where you just have to hold your breath and jump and hope you make the landing. It’ll be worth it, not scary at all, and probably the best trip I’ll have been on to date. Right? Right.


Make a move

4 Dec

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I’m sure everyone out there has had hopes and dreams as a child. The problem is most people don’t follow through with those dreams. And while I’m probably never going to become a famous artist or a doctor, I still have other hopes, dreams, and goals that I set for myself. My biggest fear is that time will pass, and ten years later the opportunity will have gone. I DO NOT want to end up as someone who has regrets about “What could have been if only…”. Instead, I want to be that person who follows through on her dreams…and who actually achieves something amazing. I want to be that old person who has awesome stories for her grand kids. I want to say that I’ve lived a pretty damn good life.

But that’s my problem. I want, I wish, I hope, I dream. But, so far, I don’t feel as if I’ve acted. I mean, yes, I’ve acted on little things – the smaller goals. But the big, comparable to climbing a mountain goals are still untouched.

One of the goals that I’ve had for a long time is to start up a company. But, I’ve been stumped as to what. I’ve got so many ideas that I’m not quite sure which ones would be best. My indecisiveness (and fear of failing) are what’s stopping me from just starting up a business. Recently though, I’ve been reading about a lot of young entrepreneurs….and it’s making me want to start even more. I’m hoping that soon enough, the fire under my bum will be big enough that I’ll actually take the next step. If I do, you’ll definitely be updated on my progress. But for now, I’ll just keep on dreaming and maybe one day I’ll be ready.